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|Monday, October 2nd, 2006|
|ok so i lied a bit...
BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH FUCK YOU and FUCK HER and I am too mad, I lied so hard when I said I wasn't. I am fucking PISSED and I hate you and I hate her and I even hate him right now and I hate everyone he ever has or will sleep with who is not me. Fucking stupid bitch cuntrags, every last one of you.
FUCK YOU for even so much as TOUCHING him you fat, ugly, bitch whore who couldn't match clothes or escape that acne on your fat ugly face if your fucking life depended on it.
fucking shit, i have got to be the most retarded person ever.
|Monday, September 18th, 2006|
Quick, somebody help before I go all emoface.
...O damn, too late.
How is it possible to be so pissed and hate him so bad but still love him at the same time and want to kick him in the face and never see him again but then want to kiss him too? Especially when I see hiim upset, which is almost a constant lately.
This would be so much easier if I could just stop caring! I mean, why the fuck should I?
|Sunday, September 17th, 2006|
|here's how it really works :(
1. date a girl
2. make her a /b/ camwhore
3. fuck a different camwhore, thus breaking velmachan's heart
4. nobody profits :(
|Tuesday, August 29th, 2006|
|Wednesday, August 16th, 2006|
I think I'm deleting this journal soon because I really don't see any point in having it anymore. So if you want to stay in contact, leave a comment with some kind of contact information. I'm velmachan on AIM but you can't see me unless I add you, so let me know if I need to do that.
|Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006|
Have fun at Otakon. Wish I could go. :(
|Sunday, July 23rd, 2006|
|Tuesday, July 18th, 2006|
I heard my board got removed on chanchan. I think that's probably a good thing, actually. i really just don't care. Sorry, dave_sempai
, but this just really isn't a priority. I think it would make me a pretty sad example of a person if I were super-concerned with staying remembered as a 4chan camwhore. It's even more of a letdown than Suicide Girls, really. Nobody really cares because there are just so many girls, and most of them look way too similar.
I'm not even going to be on 4chan on a regular basis until almost September, anyway. It's just impossible while I'm stuck in dial-up hell. There might be a few new pics when I get back around, like I said, but nothing worth getting your panties in a twist over.
In other news, I'm scheduled to work almost 50 hours this week. Whoas. I will be extremely tired, but the money will be worth it.
|Friday, July 14th, 2006|
my velma skirt. from acen.
It's now officially so much too big that it falls almost completely off unless I wear a belt with it. IB a way, this makes me sad. but i'll be damned if i'll gain back the weight just to get the thing to fit again, LOL. I enjoy being healthy. I can play, I have energy, I may even start running sometime soon. Well, jogging anyway.
I might post new pics some time. Not in 4chan, though. They'd have to get them from 573 if anyone even bothers going there. Stay tuned.
|Monday, June 26th, 2006|
hay guys i lost 20 pounds can i be on /s/ now? :p
|Thursday, June 1st, 2006|
I hear suspicious noises downstairs. I'm pretty sure my cat just horked a big one on the floor. Eeeeeeeew...
However, in more uplifting news, I got a jorb! Huzzah for moi! And tomorrow's the weekend! I get to see my boy tomorrow! And that is MORE than worth dealing with a cat-mess!!
|Sunday, May 28th, 2006|
|here's another from kdark1701
Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours
|Friday, May 26th, 2006|
I am at my boyfriend's house. Which makes me sublimely happy :D
I also had a fight with both my parents today and officially super want to move out. I am fully determined that this is my last summer ever living at home. ever. maybe I won't even spend the whole summer here if I can find another place to stay. This thought excites me greatly.
|Thursday, May 25th, 2006|
|How much of a mortal sin is it to hate your parents?
OK, so I don't really hate them. I just don't like them.
I am afraid that if I ever get married, I am going to be the worst wife EVER because I sure haven't learned much in that skill-set from my mom. We've already long-ago established an arrangement with chores. I am admittedly atrocious at keeping up my share. But I definitely have learned from example. I'm not going into detail, but let's just say she's mostly nice, but not exactly fastidious. Ever see mold growing in a pitcher of tea? It's disgusting. I can help, and I do
help, but I'm hardly even around. It's mostly just her and Dad. (who annoys the hell out of me constantly, by the way. It's like, his main goal in life.) I dirty like, one dish a day here because since I've been home, I've usually been out job-hunting during every meal except breakfast. I dunno. It just bothers me. I want my own house, but truth is I haven't learned how to keep anything really good and clean myself. That is one of my goals, to actually learn to maintain a decent house and stuff like that. Hell, right now I have 3 semesters of school left before the "real world" hits me square in the face and I can't even balance a damn checkbook. This is going to be interesting.
Enough being a whiny bitch for one day. I took a long hot soak in the bathtub last night to loosen up my tense neck and shoulder muscles, and they still haven't clenched back up all the way yet, so I feel pretty good. I should be going back to the temp agency to finish out my paperwork, though. I hate those places with a passion, but apparently I'm a good commodity because they called me early this morning and told me I tested really high in every area they test on, so they didn't think they'd have any trouble finding me something quickly.
I'm still not tossing out all these applications I was going to finish today. If I'm so hire-able, it ought to show sooner or later, right?
HAHAHA, that was the saddest attempt at optimism I've ever seen! I need to get outside more or something! I really am usually a pretty happy person most of the time. Money just stresses me out. Stupid stuff. We are all worth more than our earning potential. I hope some day society doesn't make that so easy to forget.
Well, gotta finish up here and get back to the search. Have a pleasant day, everyone! Hopefully I can report a hiring in the next week or so! <3
|Wednesday, May 24th, 2006|
|I got a couple of bites in the job-search!
My shoulders are really tight and hurting lately from money-stress and not having a job, but I'm going in about half an hour to check out a few opportunities that have come up--so please do wish me luck! If I do get a job before the end of this month, I will rest so much easier.
|Saturday, May 20th, 2006|
|Thursday, May 18th, 2006|
Sorry I took a while to update! I'm not depressed anymore, really. However I am tired since I've been out job-huntin' all day. And I'll continue pounding that damn pavement every day until something comes up because I doth be a broke ho!
I bought a new swimsuit today. It's got a skirt, so I'm pretty sure it's one of those designed for fat-people (as all skirted suits are) but it's just got this vintage-pinup feel to it and it's SUPER flattering and dangit, I felt hotter than marilyn monroe in that thing. It's black. I love its contrast with my dark hair and fishbelly-white skin. So I bought it. Even though I already have two swimsuits and I don't really swim much.
question: Should I get contact lenses?
next question: No, this is where you ask ME a question. Go ahead, it's ask-me-anything time. I guarantee an answer. I also guarantee that I'm a smartass and there's a slim chance at getting a 100% factual answer out of me.
Laters, guys. It's almost the weekend. Have a fun one.
|Wednesday, May 10th, 2006|
|dialup hell ;-;
i really need to get my own computer set back up so i can resume chatting-fun-times. i do not look forward to the amount of fucking lag i'll have to put up with.
in addition to the usual post-acen letdown, i will be lucky to see my boyfriend once a week this summer, i STILL don't have a job, and i hate it here. my parents have turned my room into a storage-closet, so i have no room for my own stuff. the water smells nasty and tastes even worse, and there's nothing else to drink here. so i'm pretty much continuously dehydrated because i refuse to drink that crap. and it's fucking my hair over. i have kept it pretty healthy but a shower here guarantees that all the luster is gone, it feels like straw, and nothing i do will tame the flyaways. i look and feel crappy. home isn't home anymore. i want to go back to school. or anywhere but here.
fuck. since when did velma-chan turn into angsty-chan? maybe i should just go draw pentagrams on myself with black eyeliner and listen to linkin park for a while. :p
rescue me plz.